The Rock Bottom That Became a Foundation

Alegria's story begins at age 16-17 with drug use that quickly spiraled into addiction and prostitution by age 18. For a decade, she lived in what she calls "chaos of existing" - no responsibilities, no routine, completely disconnected from reality. Her rock bottom came at age 38 in Japan, sitting alone with a bottle of whiskey during the 2011 Fukushima earthquake.

"I felt like a shell of a human," she recalls. "I was completely in a place where I had no idea where to go."

But this moment of complete surrender became her turning point. When she stopped trying to fix her life "her way" and accepted that her decisions weren't working, space opened for a different path.

The Spiritual Practice of Living With Shame

One of the most striking aspects of Alegria's journey is her honest acknowledgment that shame doesn't simply disappear. After 14 years of sobriety, she still experiences waves of shame, especially while writing her upcoming book "I Want Out."

"Breaking free from shame - it's not something that I can say now today that it's gone forever," she explains. "It's something that pops up every once in a while... I have the tools today to kind of manage to live beside it in peace."

Her approach centers on the 12-step spiritual program, particularly the first step: acceptance. Instead of fighting shame or trying to make it disappear, she practices accepting reality as it is - not worse than it is, not better than it is, but exactly as it is.

Breaking Free From Obsessive Thinking

Beyond traditional addiction recovery, Alegria found healing through Obsessive Thinkers Anonymous (OTA), a program she helped develop. The statistics she shares are startling: only 5% of our thoughts are conscious, while 95% are subconscious loops.

"We are in loops all the time," she observes. "If you be honest with yourself and just observe for a second, check in your own day. How many times you think the same thoughts again and again?"

Her example of getting stuck in obsessive thoughts about business goals illustrates how we can spiral into self-criticism and exhaustion over repeated thoughts that serve no purpose. The solution isn't to fight these thoughts, but to:

• Stop and breathe

• Accept that you're trapped in obsessive thinking

• Let go of trying to let go

• Allow choice to emerge naturally

"The minute that you accept that that's your reality right now and accept that there is nothing you can do about it right now, just let go and the rest will follow."

Reclaiming True Femininity

Alegria's journey to reclaim her feminine power involved first completely letting go of how she had used her sexuality to manipulate and survive. In rehab, she was advised to wear baggy clothes, put her hair up, avoid makeup, and connect with her authentic self without the physical attributes she had relied on.

"I hated myself. It was so hard for me," she admits about this process. But this stripping away of external identity became the foundation for discovering who she really was.

Today, she distinguishes clearly between identity and roles: "I have two kids. I have twins. They're seven years old... But is that who I am? No. It's just part of my reality and my responsibilities."

Daily Spiritual Practice

Alegria's recovery is maintained through consistent spiritual practices:

• Morning Prayer: Asking God for strength to be present and accept life as it is

• 12-Step Meetings: Attending OTA meetings five times a week

• Service: Contributing to her recovery community

• Present Moment Awareness: Constantly returning to the here and now

• Intuitive Living: Trusting her feminine intuition, which "never gets it wrong"

The Power of Acceptance

The thread running through Alegria's entire story is acceptance - not passive resignation, but active spiritual surrender. When life doesn't go according to her plans (like her child not wanting to shower), she practices accepting reality rather than forcing her will.

"Accepting reality is the most important. It's the hardest practice for me," she shares. "Wake up in the morning and just embrace life and whatever comes my way... when immediately when you are open to life, life can flow through you because you're open. You're not blocked."

A Message of Hope

Alegria's story offers profound hope for anyone struggling with shame, addiction, or feeling disconnected from their authentic self. Her journey demonstrates that:

• Recovery is possible, even from the deepest places of brokenness

• Shame can be lived with peacefully rather than eliminated

• True feminine power comes from authenticity, not manipulation

• Spiritual practice provides daily tools for living with acceptance

• You are not your roles - you are a divine spark having a human experience

As she prepares to publish her book "I Want Out" to help other women exit the adult industry, Alegria continues living proof that no matter how far you've fallen, spiritual recovery and authentic empowerment are always possible.

About Alegria Moran: Currently based in Dublin, Alegria is a recovery coach, speaker, and author working to help women transition out of the adult industry. She offers coaching and public speaking services and is active in the Obsessive Thinkers Anonymous program. You can connect with her through her website and social media platforms.

• Her Website - https://setyourselfforsuccess.com/

Remember: "Nothing changes until something changes. Today is your day to step out in faith and make a difference."

If you or someone you know is struggling with addiction, shame, or needs support transitioning out of harmful situations, remember that help is available and recovery is possible.